i studied variances before, and theyre about how things defer from the budgeted. sometimes the simpler the pictured result, the harder it is to attain.

i find myself struggling with a decision. see if i make this decision, i cant turn back anymore. i made a promise to myself that the third time would be the last. so if i decide, then i would have to stick by it. but i struggle.

why did you change? was it something i did? was it something i said? or was it both? did i push u too far? cuz now i feel like im being pushed to the edge. the most crucial time when i need your support, i need you there.. once again u push me to the edge. to cope with everything on my own, my exams and etc.

i question myself if i can still do this. the body's restless, the heart broken and the mind lost. sigh.